what's your flavor?

inspired by mappapapa's shrines.
this page is restricted to adults.

...AKA, mei as a fan.

written mostly as a self-reflection where i identify my own preferences and habits, but i think it’s good to have on here too.

fannish behavior

i engage mostly with fandom via art, but some other things i do/have done as a fan include: participating in fanzines or fanthologies, joining bigbangs and exchanges, organizing both, making merch, drawing comics, animating/storyboarding, making playlists, dabbling in fic writing, running a discord server and twitter account for my ship, making powerpoints, building digital shrines on my site, collating screencaps, making character-inspired bracelets, writing meta, and completely reworking characters/ships until they no longer resemble their canon media base forms and have become my OCs.

i’ve been in online fannish/creative/transformative spaces since i was 10 years old, to varying degrees of interactivity, but i have historically been more a lurker than an active fandom participant. (especially now that i am an adult who likes cartoons. my god, i cannot imagine having to navigate...)

i like making friends in fandom – the main draw of participating in fan communities is getting to have sincere, personal interactions with other fans, and posting art is the best way for me to attract new pals. however, i get stressed once i have a following too big for my liking and feel pressured to create "content" for a waiting audience rather than friends who i can talk to. at that point, i usually go back to being a lurker.

i think a lot about my obsessions and would say i make a fair amount of fanwork for them, but very little gets posted publicly. i am a little precious about the characters i care most about, so i'm most comfortable posting any fanwork i make about my more precious faves to smaller, more familiar audiences.

i’ve also noticed that i make more friends who are into completely different (or just adjacent) things, who also don’t mind if we don’t share fandoms. i just like seeing people talk their shit. (this doesn't mean i can't have friends who do share my fandoms, though!)


flavor profile

at a glance

toons, oc/canon, shota, HL, BL, GL, failguys, failgirls, friends to lovers, playfulness and banter, boy yuri, opposites attract, lovesick boys, ace4ace, freak4freak, girls on top, grossfreaky turned sweet, sweet turned grossfreaky.

in detail

i like things meant for a range of audiences, but my main sandbox where i like to play/make transformative work happens to be media designed for children—cartoons and kid-friendly video games. i find that media designed for adults usually already takes the characters in a direction i find creatively satisfying, and kids media characters (or one-off viddy game characters) are far more compelling than the limits of their stories.

i love all sorts of shipping, and i don't discriminate against the taboo, problematic, or transgressive, or whatever else you call it. i like lots of fucked up fiction, love exploring it, and gravitate to others who are the same (or who at least respect that way of engaging with media, and understand that your taste in entertainment is not a 1:1 reflection of your personal moral code).

i am a character-driven fan. i don't care too much about story or lore or setting but will get into anything if i'm intrigued by a character. i just like playing with dolls... for this reason, i also enjoy fanworks for source media i've never engaged with, so long as i understand and like what the fancreator is doing with the characters!

i almost always project onto my ships in some way, AKA blorbos i have a crush on get shipped with a character i can identify with.

i like HL where the woman is more assertive or has equal (if not more) power in the relationship, or any other HL that is a little weird, unconventional, or unchristian – disrupts gender roles, the guy is pathetic in some way, freak4freak type relationships, older woman/younger man, some other taboo, etc. i also like bi4bi and ace4ace, but the dynamic has to be good too…

i like BL where they are silly friends who bicker a lot but know and understand each other very well, both bottoms, or brothers. i also noticed i like BL where one of them is mad at the other one for some weird past reason, and the other one is kind of dumb about it. (see: dimilix, narumitsu, rinharu)

i like GL that is fem x masc but the masc is kind of pathetic. or, honestly, just fem x pathetic. i suppose i’m not really picky about the masc bit, but i do like an aesthetic difference, gender presentation-wise.

with any given character, i usually have one main ship for them that i prefer far above any other ships i might like for them. (the high maintenance multishipper…) sometimes i will monoship them, so any other ships involving them are a landmine, but i usually get over it as the obsession wanes.

i also ship characters monogamously most of the time, with some notable exceptions.

if i have specific power dynamics in mind (typically for HL and GL), ship reversal is almost always a landmine.


ships

sorted alphabetically by media. ships are grouped by their source media if multiple apply, and stray loner ships are all clumped together under "one-offs." name order within ship has no significance.

legend

  • 💕: favorite
  • 🌱: integral to my youth
  • censored: largely considered taboo
one-offs

jax + pomni
(the amazing digital circus)

brett + sarah 💕
(the argument)

matthew + jay
(big mouth)

hiroki + shinji 🌱
(battle royale)

beetlejuice + lydia
(beetlejuice)

tadashi + hiro
(big hero 6)

logan + louise
(bob's burgers)

tashi + art + patrick
(challengers)

charlie + lola
(charlie and lola)

chester + wilson + lilly 🌱
(chester's way)

hanawa + maruko 💕🌱
(chibi maruko-chan)

joan + jfk
(clone high)

numbuh 3 + numbuh 4 🌱
(kids next door)

troy + abed + annie
(community)

vampire + alchemist
(cookie run)

falin + marcille
(dungeon meshi)

kevin + edd 🌱
(ed, edd, n eddy)

mac + frankie
(foster's home for imaginary friends)

rin + haru 🌱
(free!)

the grinch + cindy lou
(the grinch (2018))

mikorin + chiyo
(gekkan shoujo nozaki-kun)

meg + hypnos
(hades)

stan + sandy 💕
(hamtaro)

emmett + elle
(legally blonde)

jack + ralph 🌱
(lord of the flies)

otani + koizumi 🌱
(lovely complex)

giulia + alberto
(luca)

flapjack + sally syrup
(the marvelous misadventures of flapjack)

wilbur + lewis 💕🌱
(meet the robinsons)

sasori + deidara 🌱
(naruto)

mei + junkrat
(overwatch)

ben + leslie 💕
(parks and recreation)

gerri + roman 💕
(succession)

kidflash + jinx
(teen titans)

miriam + mei
(turning red)

riff + anita
(west side story (2021))

nick + judy
(zootopia)

ace attorney

edgeworth + wright

ema + klavier

aggretsuko

tadano + retsuko

haida + retsuko

animal crossing

celeste + flick 💕

redd + isabelle

genji + lopez

kid cat + carmen 💕

ducktales (2017)

huey + webby

dewey + webby

duck triplets + webby (the only way louie can be with webby, lol)

dewey + della

encanto

bruno + mirabel

isabela + camilo

fire emblem three houses

yuri + bernadetta 💕

dimitri + felix 💕

leonie + lorenz

sylvain + bernadetta

edelgard + claude

ferdinand + dorothea

claude + hilda

yuri + dimitri

dimitri + hilda

mercedes + ingrid

dedue + ashe

sylvain + dedue

hubert + byleth (F)

hubert + mercedes

dimitri + annette

hilda + caspar

felix + annette

mercedes + jeritza 💕

simon + annette

gravity falls

dipper + pacifica

mabel + bill

it (2017 & 2019)

richie + eddie 💕

bev + eddie

richie + eddie + bev

my hero academia

bakugou + uraraka

bakugou + kirishima

osomatsu-san

totoko + osomatsu

osomatsu + karamatsu 💕

karamatsu + ichimatsu

over the garden wall

wirt + beatrice 🌱💕

wirt + sarah

the owl house

hunter + willow 💕

emira + edric

alador + willow

pokemon

volo + akari

hop + gloria 💕

bede + gloria

sonia + leon

lusamine + guzma

rise of the TMNT

donnie + leo

donnie + mikey

leo + april (i read a fic that changed my life...)

spy x family

damian + anya

yor + yuri

steven universe

rose + pearl

lapis + peridot 💕

lars + sadie


shipping triangle

created april 2023; not totally accurate. ships not plugged in (because there are too many of them), but this is how i usually ship things. click the image to view it on its own.